I’m finding it hard to begin this post. I have so much to share but struggle with knowing where to begin. But perhaps as some writers would suggest, I will let my fingers take control of the keyboard and see what emerges on the page. No obsessive editing and rewriting. I’m committed to the natural flow. I recognize that it’s been an eternity since my last entry, and for that, I apologize. I’ve been busy trying to stay afloat with work, while spending time with friends and family over the holidays. If a cartoon could represent me, I would choose Taz-Mania because I’m always seemingly in a rush and multi tasking like no tomorrow (although I hope that I am not as fierce looking ;p).
This blog post is dedicated is to my accomplishments in 2012. It’s been an unforgettable year of personal and professional growth. I bit the bullet and left the comfort of home, moved to Toronto, and successfully completed my Masters degree in Social Work (a goal I had set for myself at the age of 22). Those are things I can tick off on my bucket list. Another would be that I decided to start a personal passion project, the Vancity Catalyst Crew.
For a community group that shows much promise and potential, I wish I could tell you that I had strategically planned everything out for a year before it’s inception. And that I had thrown myself into toastmaster groups, read 100 self development books on how to become a leader, and crafted out a fool proof business development strategy plan. No, the truth would be that on one uneventful Friday night, it took 30 minutes to decide, and one hour to launch. I didn’t have a plan, just a vision.
Why did I create the group?
My WHY is because I was tired of waiting for the right opportunity and time to get started. My expectation was a sign, nothing short of an enlightening experience. This could be a great leader telling me that I was ready to step it up in life, or my busy schedule magically clearing up, or something of the supernatural such as clouds in the sky shaped into the letters “N-O-W-I-S-T-H-E-T-I-M-E”. I waited and waited, but as expected, none of these things happened. It was a conscious DECISION made one very normal night. Another important reason is my passion for life long learning and making impact in people’s lives. Without these things actively happening in my life, I would feel as useless as a drenched sponge (stream of consciousness writing, don’t judge). Unfortunately, I was not obtaining these things at work and decided that I needed to create these things for myself instead of waiting for it to find me.
In the land of logic, we will find any reason not to start, not to leap, not to pursue. Blocking out your mind and listening to the stirrings of your soul, is the first step to achieving your greatness. My logic said, “You’re not developed as a leader yet”, “You should focus on making income”, “Your day job as a social worker is stressful enough, don’t commit to anything else”. My heart said, “Shut up logic, this is a fabulous idea and it needs to begin today”.
Although its only been a short four months since the group began, I have already made leap and bounds in my personal/professional growth. I have regular opportunities to work on my public speaking, group facilitation and project management skills, while doing what I absolutely love; connecting people and creating opportunities for others to grow. I also feel more courageous and confident in my special skills, abilities and ideas, something that I was struggled with before. But it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. I battle feelings of doubt and regret on the tough days. Working in a more then your average, emotionally/mentally draining job, sometimes the last thing I want to do is organize events, meet new people and be accountable to a large group. However, choosing to persevere and work through these challenges has been one of the best learning experiences ever. Yes, I don’t get to relax as much or hang out with family or friends often, luxuries that others may have; however what keeps me going, is knowing that I am making positive impact in the lives of others and learning along the way. Creating new friendships with likeminded people is also a huge bonus ;)
The most important lessons I have learned from this experience is, to JUST START, FAITH OVER FEAR AND TRUST IN THE PROCESS. If you can find a way to warm up to these these things, you can achieve whatever you decide to do. Just go out there and do it. I know that this venture will open the doors to my next opportunity and I’m excited for what my future holds. I’d like to also thank my new and old friends for helping me along the way with this project- wouldn’t have been possible without you.
So here is my question for you. What do you want in life and what are you willing to do to make it happen?
All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. -Walt Disney